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  WHAT’S A GIRL GOTTA DO

  Sparkle Hayter

  Copyright by Sparkle Hayter

  Smashwords Edition

  Copyright by Sparkle Hayter 1992

  All rights reserved

  Smashbooks Edition 2011

  PUBLISHER’S NOTE

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  ISBN: 978-1-4661-8276-9

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  First published in the United States of America by Soho Press

  1994

  For Bill, Ron and Jac’y

  Thanks to Lynn Fowler and Vicky Knee for retyping the book for e-book conversion.

  “Many a good hanging prevents a bad marriage”

  -William Shakespeare, Twelfth Night

  Chapter One

  New York City, 1993

  ON THE LAST DAY of the year, I got this weird phone call.

  It’s not every day a dame like me gets a call from a mysterious stranger.

  Well, actually, it is almost every day. I’m a reporter and I get a lot of phone calls from mysterious strangers, most of whom are clearly a few bees short of a hive. It’s a fact of my life.

  But it’s not every day I get a call at home from a mysterious stranger who knows my childhood nickname, my mother’s medical history, even when and to whom I’d lost my cherry in high school. This guy wasn’t just another conspiracy buff calling up with a wild theory, claiming to have “evidence” of a link between freemasonry and Lee Harvey Oswald or some other scandal that was going to rock our republic to its very roots. This guy knew some strange stuff about me, and when he said he was a private investigator and wanted to meet to give me the rest of a report he’d done on me, it naturally piqued my interest.

  I tried to get as much information from him as I could over the phone, of course, but he was a tough nut to crack. He wouldn’t tell me why he was investigating me, or who hired him to investigate me. To every question, he answered, simply, “Meet me at the Marfeles Palace Hotel tonight. I’ll find you.”

  My company was having its New Year’s Eve party that night at the Marfeles in midtown Manhattan.

  I hung up the phone and asked myself: Who would investigate me, Robin Hudson, a lowly, third-string correspondent at the All News Network with a floundering career and a failed marriage? Sure, my estranged husband and I were divorcing, and I won’t kid you, I was angry with him and I was hurt. But I’d agreed to the divorce and I wasn’t seeking alimony. It wasn’t like Burke had any need to dig up dirt on me and it wasn’t like there was much dirt to be dug up. What could this mystery man find?

  But.

  I have secrets, like everyone else, embarrassing secrets I’d just rather people didn’t know about me, and I was especially vulnerable to embarrassment at the moment. See, the last six months of the year weren’t very good for me.

  In July, a faux pas at a White House news conference effectively ended my brief career as a Washington correspondent. Shortly after that, another faux pas, involving a cannibalism story, sent me into TV news Siberia, the Special Reports unit. Murphy’s Law, right? Once my career was pretty much destroyed, my husband, Burke Avery, left me for another woman, and not just any woman but a much younger woman.

  In light of all this, what could anyone dig up that would possibly make me feel or look worse? Well, there were a few other humiliating incidents I’d like to leave behind me, thank you very much, and a few shameful acts I don’t want the whole world to know about.

  So I’d meet the guy at the Marfeles that night. The location was good; there’d be a lot of people at the ANN party to make me feel safer, just in case the guy was some kind of sicko who wanted to get me alone in an underground parking garage, Deep Throat-style, to rape and flay me.

  The ANN New Year’s Eve party was an annual apocalyptic event, a costume ball where employees dress up as their favorite news story and generally get wrecked. This year was our tenth anniversary and the theme was a salute to ten years of twenty-four-hour television news, a very big deal.

  Yet, before I got that phone call, I planned to skip it. Why? Maybe because my estranged husband was going to be there. Maybe because he was coming with Miss Amy Penny.

  Miss Amy Penny. During her relatively brief life thus far, Miss Amy Penny had done a lot. As co-host of ANN’s Gotham Salon, a morning magazine show, she provided a steady diet of celebrity, news, fashion guidance, and other soft features for homemakers who’d taken the Mommy Track.

  Before becoming a “television personality” (which may or may not be an oxymoron), she was a Miss Mason-Dixon Line and a TV and trade show spokes model for that upscale, low dust baby powder, Gentility. You may remember their ad campaign two years ago, the one where a woman with caramel-colored hair and big tits lolled around on a beige carpet with a baby-for-hire and two of those little wrinkled-up dogs, SharPeis. Amy was the one with the big tits.

  All this, plus the fact that she aspired to “serious journalism,” I learned from a recent, half-page, kissy-face article in People, which failed to include the accomplishment most pertinent to my own life: She’d managed to break up my marriage.

  Miss Amy Penny. Just the sound of her name was enough to burn a hole in the lining of my stomach. I’d seen her around the network and caught a few episodes of her program but, as Burke worked for a rival station, I’d never had to see her on the arm of my husband before. Friends of Amy’s made sure I knew they’d be there. Presumably, they thought I’d opt to avoid further humiliation and take a pass on the party, which had made sense to me. But then the mystery man called and I changed my mind.

  As the ANN party was a costume party, I toyed for a while with the idea of going as Ronald Reagan’s colon, a story that had special meaning to me. But in the end (no pun intended), I opted for something simpler and less offensive, as one of my New Year’s resolutions was to try to offend fewer people in the next decade and thereby escape from the century with my life. I decided to go as Ginny Foat, a prominent feminist tried for murder and acquitted in 1983. On a practical note, it was easy to put together. All I had to do was wear a “Support Your Local Feminist” button and carry a tire iron around.

  It felt oddly appropriate to me. Maybe because my estranged husband was going to be at the party. Maybe because he was bringing Miss Amy Penny.

  Understandably, it took some serious motivational exercises to get up my courage to go. I poured myself a glass of lemon Stoly on the rocks, put some music on, and sat down with my ancient, battle-scarred cat, Louise Bryant, in our favorite arm-chair. Together, Louise Bryant and I pondered the comforting lyrics of our favorite post marriage song, Nancy Sinatra’s “These Boots Are Made for Walking.”

  I don’t know why but this ritual, that song, and the act of hitting the palm of my hand gently with my tire iron seemed to bring order to my thoughts. A kind of serenity came over me and I found the nerve to go.

  Murphy’s Law again. When I got outside my apartment building, I ran into my downstairs neighbor, Mrs. Ramirez, an eighty-year-old bully with a blue rinse, who was out walking her high-strung Chihuahua, Señor. God, I hate those dogs. They look like rats with a glandular problem, they’re dumber than a sack of hammers, and they’re bad-tempered—a horror movie just waiting to happen. What is the attraction?

  In Mrs. Ramirez’s case I co
uld kind of see it, though, because she and the dog shared the same snappish temperament. Not all old people are sweet and wise. Even assholes grow old. Mrs. Ramirez, for instance, has this nasty habit of cornering me in the elevator, calling me a whore, and rapping my head with her cane. She complains constantly about me to the landlord, the super, and the few good Catholics left in our East Village neighborhood. If she wasn’t so damned old, I’d press charges.

  With Señor’s leash in one hand and her carved cane in the other, she shuffled towards me menacingly. “I couldn’t sleep last night because of you!”

  I’m always really sweet when I talk to her. It’s kind of an experiment. I’m trying out that kill-them-with-kindness theory.

  “Hello, Mrs. Ramirez!” I said, smiling angelically. “How’s your little friend Señor? And how are you?”

  Still got that very large, very rough stick up your ass?

  “You had a big party last night! I was up all night!”

  “I didn’t have a party, I watched a movie and went to bed.”

  “I heard dancing!”

  Mrs. Ramirez’s problem, as I’ve tried to explain to her 354 times, is that her hearing aid is turned up too high, amplifying the noise in my apartment, which is above hers. The sound of a cap popping off a soda bottle sounds like the crack of a whip to her. When my cat, Louise Bryant, walks across the floor, Mrs. Ramirez thinks there’s a naked mambo party going on upstairs and multiple commandments are being repeatedly and cavalierly broken.

  “I was watching Top Hat,” I said. “The volume was way down.”

  “It sounded like you had the Rockettes up there! It was so loud it scared me. I had to take a nitroglycerin pill. Next time, I’m calling the police.

  “Please call the police next time, Mrs. Ramirez. Have them come up and arrest the Rockettes,” I said.

  “I’ll call them now!” she said.

  Suddenly, she picked up her cane and waved it at me. I held up my tire iron to ward off the blow. This was great. Get into a sword fight with an old woman in the middle of the street. Try to convince the police when they came that I had to bean a frail eighty-year-old lady with my tire iron in self-defense. I turned and started walking away from her fast.

  “You young people have no respect. You’re all going to get AIDS and die,” she said, as if that were a just punishment for lack of respect. Then she shuffled brusquely past me with Señor, who belatedly picked up Louise Bryant’s scent and began yapping.

  The glittering Marfeles Palace, a restored beaux arts building turned into a hotel and run by the imperious Eloise Marfeles, would normally be way out of ANN’s price range, which was more along the lines of a Knights of Columbus bingo hall.

  But Eloise Marfeles had defied centuries of superstition by allowing her building to have a thirteenth floor. No sooner had she opened the previous autumn than bad luck visited her with a vengeance. Fires broke out, unions staged job actions, elevators got stuck between floors, and other mishaps occurred almost daily. The tabloids were having a field day with it and business was bad.

  As a result, ANN got a real deal on the place—the ballroom and a block of rooms on the thirteenth floor for use by company personnel the night of the party. For her part, Eloise Marfeles got a lot of cheap publicity out of ANN and a chance to debunk the superstition.

  When I got there, I hesitated in the doorway and, with mixed feelings of curiosity and dread, scanned the crowd. Around me Dan Quayles, Jeffrey Dahmers, and Long Dong Silvers mingled with Hillary Clintons, Boris Yeltsins, giant condoms, and giant Tylenol capsules.

  Frannie Millard, a robust matron done up as Margaret Thatcher, grabbed my arm and said, “Robin Hudson.”

  “Yes.”

  “I’m in charge of name tags tonight. Not everyone wants to wear one, but I hope you won’t give me a hard time about it.”

  “What a drag, having to work at the party,” I said, as she pinned me for easy identification.

  “I like helping out,” she said efficiently and left me for three members of the Standards & Practices division, also known as the network censors, a.k.a. the court eunuchs.

  An ancient panic grabbed me as I stared into the social chaos ahead: Who would I hand out with? Tonight I needed a comfortable cordon of friendship to protect me both from mysterious strangers and from humiliation by my husband. I looked around for someone I recognized, someone sympathetic, and saw Louis Levin heading towards me. Louis was a news producer and a paraplegic and he had done his wheelchair up as an electric chair, complete with a leather and metal helmet.

  “Hey, little girl,” he said. “Wanna sit in my lap and play with Mister Microphone?”

  “Who are you supposed to be?”

  “Ted Bundy.” He pushed a button and smoke came out of the helmet.

  “You are an evil genius, Louis.”

  “Thanks. Who are you?”

  “Ginny Foat. Say, Louis, have you seen my husband sliming around tonight?”

  “Not that I know of,” he said. “What’s he coming as?”

  “I dunno. I couldn’t find out.”

  “I did see your second favorite person,” he said. “Jerry Spurdle.”

  “What did he come as?”

  “Himself.”

  “He came as a bucket of larvae?”

  Spurdle was my boss in the Special Reports unit. I “belonged” to Jerry Spurdle, as he liked to remind me. He was part of my humiliation, my punishment, my artistic suffering.

  “No. He came as Richard Nixon,” Louis said. “He came as a dick. Get it?”

  “Har har,” I said slowly. “Just like Jerry to pick a story that was over before the network ever went on the air.” An exclusive radio interview with Nixon in 1972 had made his reputation—Jerry’s, not Nixon’s—and he liked to remind people of it.

  “I’m sitting with some of the writers,” Louis said. “Why don’t you join us?”

  “Bless you. I will—later. First, I think I’ll do some recon. Map out all the people I want to avoid.” And try to make contact with my mystery man.

  “Come sit with us. We’re up in the balcony,” he said, and motored away.

  I circulated, waiting for the man who knew my secrets to approach me, while at the same time keeping an eye out for Burke and Amy.

  This being a costume party, it was hard to tell who was who without reading name tags. Everyone was in disguise with a few highly visible exceptions, including Dr. Solange Stevenson, ANN’s psychologist with a talk show, whose only nod to whimsy was a photo button showing her rival, Dr. Sonya Friedman, with a large red X through her face. Also not in costume, our fearless leader, Georgia Jack Jackson, chairman of the board of Jackson Broadcasting System, our parent company.

  Solange was simply too dignified to wear a costume (“the soothing Solange Stevenson”—TV Guide). But dignity was something Georgia Jack didn’t worry about too much. Since he considered himself his favorite news story he came as . . . himself. Legitimately, I might add. In the 1980s Georgia Jack unleashed an entertainment empire on the world, built a twenty-four-hour news network against the odds, dated half the women in the Screen Actors Guild, and created a great deal of controversy by buying up classic silent films and adding sound and dialogue to them, which filmmakers decried as mutilation.

  Jackson was huddled at one end of the ballroom with the cream of the correspondents, the mediacrats, the cool kids at the prom who excited my envy.

  The network’s premier anchor and talk-show host, “avuncular” Greg Browner, was dressed this night as an MX missile. Greg was a prince of the Jack Jackson church, and ruled an autonomous fiefdom within the kingdom. His highly rated call-in show had taken on Larry King and made a respectable showing. Greg then moved his show up an hour to beat King to the punch, and was taking away huge chunks of the traditional call-in audience.

  Next to him was “dispassionate and professional” Joanne Armoire, dressed as the late great Lucy. Beneath her red wig, Joanne was blond and beautiful in a Lufthansa stew
ardess sort of way. Her career had been meteoric. She’d been one of the few Western women to go into Afghanistan with the mujahedin and she’d taken a bullet in her leg when she was covering the ethnic war in Sarajevo.

  This is who I thought I would be: a brave, trench-coated figure, looking serious and beautiful, standing in a war zone in some picturesque country, bringing the world my own brilliant and illuminating insights on the news. I saw myself as a hard-hitting correspondent, taking on world leaders, asking them tough questions, Oriana Fallaci in Rita Hayworth’s body, bad men cowering and good men swooning in my wake.

  That’s who I thought I would be. This is who I am: a slightly rumpled, third-string reporter with ink stains on all her blouses and a small run in her stocking, who sneaks around with a hidden camera looking for seamy stories and petty scandals. The National Enquirer—in Rita Hayworth’s body.

  Joanne and I had started out at ANN around the same time, in similar lowly positions, and we had both been writers for Greg Browner when he was the anchor and managing editor for the six o’clock. Her hitch on the six had gone somewhat better than mine, in small part, at least, because she knew how to handle Greg’s constant advances and his big ego. She knew when to speak, when to hold her tongue, and how to be diplomatic.

  I did not. I told Greg to go fuck himself and was promptly given a new assignment—a better assignment, actually—another report on my “bad attitude” comfortably ensconced in my thick personnel file.

  I watched Joanne trade bon mots with Mark O’Malley, a devilishly handsome business reporter wearing a barrel marked “1987 stock market crash,” and Tom Charing, who wore an upright open coffin and a bad suit with a hammer and sickle on the lapel to represent a generic dead Soviet leader. Off to the side was Madri Michaels, a brunette anchorwoman with a premolded plastic kind of beauty who came as Madonna, wearing Mylar. So obvious.